my sweet boy, i cant even think about how to start this, but i hope you know i love you so so much my baby boy, i love you and only you forever my love, your really the best thing that has ever happened to me. i dont even know what i was doing with my life before i met you, you saved me, seriously. your the reason im here right now my love, we really have never made things official, im too scared to ask you to be my boyfriend, but i really hope we are together. i hope you see me as a girlfriend. gosh jazzy i really do love you, you really are my kind of boy jaz, jazzy, jizz, jizzie, zelle, you really do have alot of nicknames haha, i seriously can’t remember them all but all i know is that your my love. i really have never loved and cared someone as much as i have for you, i love your sweet smile, your cute laugh, the small gap in your teeth, it’s just so you. i love your hair, your sweet brown wavy hair, i remember when it used to be long. i love the way you always let me watch you play rocket league with your camera on, i love the sweet names you call me, “my love, my sweet girl, my princess, my bunny lilah” they make me so happy, you make me so happy. i really am the luckiest girl ever to have someone like you jaz, and i know i dont say it much but i seriously am so so grateful for you baby. i love the way you can’t get to sleep without being on call with me. i love how behind all the lustful jokes we make we both know deep down we wouldn’t know what to do without eachother, i love my phrases i have for you and only you “your so cute im gonna kill you, jokee” i love how hachimi is our thing, i remember one time you said to me “you really are my kind of woman” it made me cry, seriously. your worth all my tears heart and energy my love. even tho we may argue and things, i love the fact we always make up and apologise to eachother. the thing i really hate tho is the way i always accidentally make you upset, i really don’t mean to and i feel like such a horrible person whenever i realise ive done something to upset you, i don’t know why im like this jazzy, i really dont know, ive not been the best recently but your keeping me alive and going. your my motivation. im missing your sweet voice and handsome face already while typing this, i really do love you more than anyone and anything in the whole entire world. i love you, jaz xx